Insomnia.

Truthfully, I have no idea what's going on lately. When I say that I mean that I have completely messed up my sleep schedule, by staying up til the wee hours of the morning most nights, watching TV or videos on Netflix; as a result, I am now wide awake until 3-4 AM and unable to sleep until that time, resulting in sleeping in much later. Not good. As the job search continues I find myself becoming extremely restless with doing the same old thing, every day, for almost three months now. This is not exactly healthy behavior, sometimes mentally and physically all at once, depending on what's going on. I have, however, discovered I can do whatever I want during this time - aka. taking total advantage of these days I have to have fun with friends and enjoy myself when not job searching. This also includes the fact that I now, basically, have unlimited time for God! But the question is: am I using it? Well... Am I? Sadly, more often than not, no. And THAT is the worst thing ever - truly. I have the hardest time reading the bible sometimes - and I have this thing where I like to wait until it's dark out (night time) when I shut all my lights off and turn on worship music just to spend time with God in total focus - but that seems to only happen a couple times a week, if that.

I definitely have many issues to work out. I am human, yes, but I need to grow up some day. I need to learn to budget finances, to be diligent and disciplined in exercising to become a firefighter, and to be completely SOLD OUT for Jesus in my walk with Him - by spending time with him, staying pure in all aspects of life, etc. You know what I mean.

I have no idea who will read this, but be encouraged by my verse of the day: 2 Corinthians 3:3. Look it up. :)