This morning I woke up and had this thought, about how naturally clumsy I am - always getting hurt, almost like a hobby. I don't know if you (whoever reads this) have heard, but I would be surprised if you hadn't. I severely sprained my right ankle on July 29th at our youth group's regular summer pool party, and have been trying to heal it since; however, sadly, every morning I wake up it seems to feel sprained all over again from flopping around all night. I have no clue why it's not healing, but it is definitely frustrating.

In high school, if anyone was ever in the nurse's office for something, it was me 80% of the time. I was a walking target and still continue to be.

This is just like anytime we as humans slip and fall in our walk with God; it's like anytime we sin. Slipping and falling can either be literal or metaphorical - you get the point. This isn't something we can really get away from, as we are humans, and naturally we are made to slip and fall - but if we're smart, we will watch where we're walking (that was lots of W's!) and be aware of our surroundings, allowing us to avoid any obstacle that could cause us to slip and fall.

I thought this was a great analogy. I personally hate slipping and falling; I hate sinning, in my human nature. We all fall, whether it's by judging people, speaking gossip, lusting, idolizing, or many other things - but we all do it. The only person in history to be completely pure of it all was Jesus - And none of us will ever measure up to Him - which is why we follow Him, and strive to be like Him in every single way - everyday.

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"No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it." (1 Corinthians 10:13 NIV)

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Another morning, another jobless day.

Well, today is another day, another jobless day where I wake up and watch the price is right while I job search online and photo edit until my eyes fall out of my eyesockets. I'm really tired of it - honestly. I know this sounds like "whining" and I know you're thinking, "why doesn't she go out and apply face-to-face?" - thing is, I have done that numerous times. I even had a family friend connection send out my resume to over 3500 businesses in the lower mainland. Of course, sadly, lots of those came back to be ones in abbotsford, delta, new west and that's a little bit too far for someone with no car. There were also some which were just not bus accessible whatsoever. This is all a major let down.

I do know that God will provide. I know it. He's just really taking His time to teach me a lesson in life, I think. Also giving me tons of time (all the time in the world apparently) to get myself in shape and that is something I LOVE. So, I'll get there. Someway, somehow, I'll get there, and for now I'm living on EI which gives me enough for rent per month and then barely anything left to spare after paying bills... But I'll get there. With His strength, I will get there.



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"And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called you to his eternal glory in Christ, will himself restore, confirm, strengthen, and establish you." (1 Peter 5:10 ESV)

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If We Are the Body....?!

It's crowded in worship today
As she slips in,
Trying to fade into the faces...
The girls' teasing laughter is, carrying farther than they know
Farther than they know...

But if we are the body, why aren't his arms reaching? Why aren't his hands healing? Why aren't his words teaching? And If we are the body, why aren't his feet going? Why is his love not showing them there is a way?

There is a way...

A traveler is far away from home...
He sheds his coat,
And quietly sinks into the back row...
The weight of their judgmental glances tells him that his chances,
Are better out on the road...

But if we are the body, why aren't his arms reaching? Why aren't his hands healing? Why aren't his words teaching? And If we are the body, why aren't his feet going? Why is his love not showing them there is a way?

Jesus paid much too high a price,
For us to pick and choose who should come!
And we are the body of Christ...

But if we are the body, why aren't his arms reaching? Why aren't his hands healing? Why aren't his words teaching? And If we are the body, why aren't his feet going? Why is his love not showing them there is a way?

JESUS IS THE WAY. <3



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Insomnia.

Truthfully, I have no idea what's going on lately. When I say that I mean that I have completely messed up my sleep schedule, by staying up til the wee hours of the morning most nights, watching TV or videos on Netflix; as a result, I am now wide awake until 3-4 AM and unable to sleep until that time, resulting in sleeping in much later. Not good. As the job search continues I find myself becoming extremely restless with doing the same old thing, every day, for almost three months now. This is not exactly healthy behavior, sometimes mentally and physically all at once, depending on what's going on. I have, however, discovered I can do whatever I want during this time - aka. taking total advantage of these days I have to have fun with friends and enjoy myself when not job searching. This also includes the fact that I now, basically, have unlimited time for God! But the question is: am I using it? Well... Am I? Sadly, more often than not, no. And THAT is the worst thing ever - truly. I have the hardest time reading the bible sometimes - and I have this thing where I like to wait until it's dark out (night time) when I shut all my lights off and turn on worship music just to spend time with God in total focus - but that seems to only happen a couple times a week, if that.

I definitely have many issues to work out. I am human, yes, but I need to grow up some day. I need to learn to budget finances, to be diligent and disciplined in exercising to become a firefighter, and to be completely SOLD OUT for Jesus in my walk with Him - by spending time with him, staying pure in all aspects of life, etc. You know what I mean.

I have no idea who will read this, but be encouraged by my verse of the day: 2 Corinthians 3:3. Look it up. :)